Tales from a Photo Box

Enchanted January 30, 2011

Filed under: Enchanted,IPOD,Music,Taylor Swift — Photo Queen @ 8:02 pm

Recently, I’ve found myself going back to my first love in life, MUSIC. There’s something absolutely wonderful and comforting about the perfect song.

I’m the kind of girl who will find a song that can describe a certain time in my life absolutely perfectly and I will put it on replay for weeks. It will be the song that will play in my car on the way to work or school, as I get ready to go to work or get ready for work, or even as I fall asleep.

I find comfort in knowing that someone out there can relate to the way that I felt at any given time in my life and that trough this very song I’m connect to millions of others out there. It’s enchanting.

Currently playing on my IPOD: Taylor Swift: Enchanted

If you haven’t heard it yet, check it out. I’m in love.

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Diamonds and Pearls November 30, 2010

Filed under: New Job — Photo Queen @ 10:59 pm

I recently started my job at Kay Jewelers and I am surprised to say that I really like it.

I know that some of you might be saying ” who wouldn’t like to look at diamonds all day long?”, but at the same time, it is retail and after the first time, I promised myself I would never go back and do that again!

The first job I ever had, was when I was sixteen years old. I worked at Target and oh how i loathed it! I utterly disliked picked up after people all day long! Straightening clothing racks and picking up fitting rooms was the worst. Folding baby clothes took hours on end, only to find that five minutes later some mom would come and mess up all of the work you had done.

I think the biggest turn off for me though, was that I could never get time off when I needed it.

Now, hear me out. I was a busy teenager. I was an executive board member of student council and a soccer player and I had my part-time job. I also had homework. My school commitments came first and foremost and this was mentioned when I interviewed for my job. And yet, those few days off that I need to help set up a dance or do whatever it was that needed to be done just never seemed to happen.

I eventually went on to waitressing and did that successfully for six years. I told myself that until I was done with college, that would be the only thing I would do. It was some of the best money I ever made. I didn’t think I would ever go back into retail.

Here I am though, back in retail, and I absolutely love it!

I get to look at diamonds and pearls all day long! My manager is amazing! My co-workers are awesome! And the money, well, let’s just say this very well might be the best money I may ever make (for the time being anyway).

Diamonds truly are a girls best friend!

 

With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept October 26, 2010

Filed under: NIU,Questions,Thoughts,Tragedy — Photo Queen @ 11:59 am

Life has become filled with unanswered questions. Tragedy consumes our college campus.

At the end of a long day these are the thoughts that race through my head. Though they are exaggerations, they seem to be the only things that make sense to me.

A shooting that claims the lives of 5 (well 6 if you include the shooter). Another shooting; or was it a stabbing? Who really knows anymore? A suicide. A girl gone missing, turned death investigation.

In the past three years, I’ve had my share of death and disaster.

It’s so weird how you get used to the sight of reporters on campus and how the sight of news vans don’t phase you anymore. You learn to politely decline an interview and you realize that they too have a job that must be done.

The anger you feel though, that never fade. You constantly question why they won’t let you grieve in peace. Why people must comment on every little article that appears online. As if they really know what they are talking about! Why can’t they just understand that their comments are just making those trying to deal with the pain and frustration even more frustrated and angry!

At the end of the day, however, all there is to do, is lay your head down on your pillow and close your eyes. You have to thank God that you are warm and safe and in your bed. You have to put the anger and fear and unanswered questions aside and sleep.

 

When It Isn’t Like It Should Be October 21, 2010

Filed under: Purple,Respect,Suicide Prevention,Thoughts,Tolerance — Photo Queen @ 3:34 pm

It seems lately, that my life has become full of controversial topics and that if I don’t get them down on paper (or in this case in print) I might just explode into a million tiny little pieces.

So here is my disclaimer: If you don’t like what you’re reading STOP! This is entirely my own opinion, not intended to hurt anyone’s feelings. I am however, entirely prepared to take whatever comments come my way. Proceed with caution.

Yesterday, there was a nationwide campaign to wear purple in order to end intolerance of homosexuality and to raise awareness of homophobic abuses

As I opened up my Facebook page yesterday, I was met with a question, “I wear purple because I am. Why do you? I thought it was wonderful! My head was swirling with the answers I would love to type. Unfortunately, duty called and I had to leave my computer behind.

For those of you wondering what my answer would have been; it’s tough to say. I could have answered, ” Because my best friend is.” “Because I believe in the movement.” or simply “Because everyone deserves to live a life filled with love.”

It breaks my heart when I hear stories of suicide due to homophobic bullying. I hate it when you overhear someone saying that they won’t be friends with someone anymore because they “came out”. I can’t stand it when someone says they chose this lifestyle.

I love the episode of Fox’s Glee two weeks ago. I think  Kurt said it best when he said, “[God] makes me gay and then makes His followers go around saying it’s a choice, as if I’d choose to be mocked every day of my life.”

Now excuse the reference to God, I have no intention of bringing religion into this. The quote was intended solely to get my point across.

I have to say though, If I had a choice between normalcy and being mocked everyday, I’d pick normalcy. So, let’s try not to call it a life choice from now on.

I guess the point of this whole thing is to just get those of you out there who don’t share my views, to think a little differently on the issue. Each and everyone person out there, gay or straight, is still a person, and they deserve to be treated as such.

 

Champagne For My Real Friends September 21, 2010

Filed under: Friendship,Life,New Beginnings — Photo Queen @ 11:09 pm

With a new chapter in my life just beginning, I have started to think that it is about time that I made some serious changes.

I have always been the kind of person that has put in a lot of time and effort to put others first and myself second and sometimes even dead last. Very often, I found myself getting forgotten. People who I thought were true friends seemed to dismiss that I too had feelings and needs that needed to be addressed.

I will not do that anymore.

Don’t get me wrong. I have no problems putting others first but, when is it my turn? Sometimes, I want someone to ask me about my day or make sure everything is going okay in my life. A friendship is not something that is one-sided. It is something that has to be reciprocated and shared.

From now on I am only surrounding myself with upbeat and positive people. I need people who are going to lift me and that I can lift up too.

So, while I’m getting ready to finish this up: Nicole, even though we didn’t talk tonight, thank you for all of your concern today and for trying to call twenty million times today (lol). I can’t wait to talk to you tomorrow! Jessie, you are an amazing M.O.H! I love you! I can’t wait to see you on Friday! Thank you for talking me down today! Brad, I love you fiance! You are the greatest!

A toast to all best friends out there! Those that lift you up and celebrate you. Those that catch you when you fall and are ready to do shots with you when you are ready to party!

 

Some Roads Lead Nowhere August 12, 2010

Filed under: Moods,Thoughts — Photo Queen @ 12:24 am

I’ve been pushing myself very hard lately to just sit down and write, but I feel as if a lot of my inspiration is gone.

I have drafts piled up, all leading to dead ends. They all lead nowhere.

I’m tired, worn down, and I’m just not feeling it right now.

So, here it is, I’m taking a break until something in my life changes. I’m done until something sparks my interest again. I’m out until my world has meaning again.

 

How To Save A Life July 27, 2010

Filed under: Life,Psychology,Suicide Prevention — Photo Queen @ 10:43 pm

This year, I decided to change my major from psychology to nursing. The change wasn’t a difficult one for me because I knew that in either profession, I would be doing what I had wanted to do since I was little; saving a life.

This story is a tough one to tell, and I won’t be using names nor will I be telling it in a way in which anyone will be able to identify who the subjects are unless they were the ones who lived it. The story is however, important when it comes to getting to my point.

About five years ago, a young man went through a deep depression and became unreachable to everyone who knew him. He became withdrawn and very private in all aspects of his life. He lost interest all of the things he once loved and became a stranger to those that loved him. In the fall, he decided his life was no longer worth living and that he was going to end it. He went to school that day with the intention of ending it all.

By the grace of God, he became unsure of his thoughts and went to a counselor at school and told her of his thoughts and his parents were called.

Thanks to his family and a team of wonderful psychiatrists and wonderful friends, that young man graduated high school this year and is starting college in fall. He is happy and outgoing and full of wonder and dreams and enormous potential and I can’t imagine the world without him.

Every year, the U.S. loses 33,000 lives to suicide. We need help to end this and to make sure more stories end this way (if they even have to begin the way this one did).

On October 9th I will be walking for  suicide prevention and I am trying to raise at least two hundred dollars. All of the money goes to The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. The money funds programs that helps provide programs, psychologists, brochures and so much more. Please, please, please help out! The link is below.

http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.participant&eventID=1140&participantID=111658